because of the certain dramas ive been encountering the past few weeks, your humble friend is going to turn back to his tab. His journal is gonna be an outlet of his emotions, whinings, adventures and the like...

im like, ssoooooo down right now.

I hate it when you talk to me
And the way you cut your hair
I hate the way you drive your car
I hate it when you stare

I hate your big dumb combat boots
And the way you read my mind
I hate you so much it makes me sick
It even makes me rhyme

I hate the way you are always right
I hate it when you lie
I hate it when you make me laugh
Even worse when you make me cry

I hate it that you're not around
And the fact you didn't call
And mostly I hate the way I don't hate you
Not even close, not even a little bit not any at all.

--From the movie "10 Things I hate about you"

Kasabay ng pagbuhos ng ulan, ang aking pagiyak. Masaya ako, kahit papaano, may nakikiramay pa rin pala sa kin, umiiyak din ang langit…

Sabi ko noon, di na ako mahuhulog ulit. Pero bakit ganun, kung kelan mo ayaw magmahal, dun cya dadating, tapos kung kelan mo gus2, dun naman niya ipagdadamot sau.

Sadya palang mhirap mamuhay sa ganitong persona, maraming nagdidikta sayo, nakakalungkot, maski pusong nagmamahal, mapipilitang labagin, para lang gawin kung ano ang sinasabing tama ng lintik na sociedad.

Basahin niyo na lang ito…

“I want to put things in their proper places, im not leaving you because I found some1 else, or im not happy with you anymore. But I want to live right. Thank you for loving me so much…”

“All the words ive told you before are true, so don’t be sad. I just want to be unbothered by things. I hope you understand and I know you’ll do coz ure a good man. dont call coz ul gonna make it harder for me…”

“Paul, I really dunno, it seems everythings not right. Im not for this, and you don’t deserve a fool like me. I thought I can handle a relationship like this but I was wrong.”

“I just want to live right. Yeah im guilty to have loved a guy, but I loved u. And that’s what made me a fool. I have hurt a nice person like you and that would make me feel bad forever.”

“Im very thankful to have met you. U tought me so much and I think that made me a better person. No need to tell me for us to be friends. Coz u have been, U are, and ul always be my friend.”



… Hey, maybe you’ll bump and see this anytime soon, maybe not…
But I just want you to know that ill miss ur croaky voice, ur untidy uniform (remember the date we had when u have to travel a whole lot, and I was sooo mad coz u were like late for almost 4 hrs.?), ill miss ur constant braggings about ur school works, our debates, ill miss ur late night calls, aarggghh… who am I fooling… point is I miss you…

…I am downright stupid here posting what shouldn’t be. But hey, im proud… what happened to us. You know that… Ive always been proud of my Mr. Piggy…

…Thank you for all my friends who consoled me, lahat kayo importante sa kin, I appreciate all that ur doing to make me feel better…

And yes, im crying while typing this. Im not out here for a pity vote, I just want to torture my self I guess…

Sabi nga sakin nung super bestfriend ko: namnamin mo ang problema…

Haay… sana maging masaya ka. Dun lang rin cguro ako sasaya. Ill see you soon ok?

Hoy panget, magload ka na… namimiss na kita agad. At oo nga pala, binabawi ko na yung sinabi ko, mula ngayon, gus2 ko na ung favorite mo na kanta ni mandy moore… “Can we still be friends?”… haayy…

Pag kasama mo na ako sa ilalim na ulan, dun na lang ako iiyak ng nakangiti… para kahit papano, di mo rin makikita ung mga patak ng luha ko…

ammm sooo gonna be toasted tomorrow.
i hafta review, but my nerve and muscle cells aint cooperating.

il be having my interview for my "supposed to be" hospital tomorrow- v.luna. and ive heard theyd be asking academically challenging questions. plus the fact that wed be having a check up test afterwards.

and then ud be having my histopathology pre finals exam, and my blood banking pratical exam...

good luck na lang sa kin...

akalain ba namang ma-late ako sa interview ko for my hospital internship...

waaahhh!!!! and to think na sa AFP hospital pa ko naasign. feeling ko nga papag-push-up-in ako e. hehehe

sabagay kasalanan ko rin naman. hehehe, i was like late for 10 mins. nakakahiya pa kasi kung kanikanino ako nagtatatanong kung san ba ung interview. kasi nga pinapasok na ata ung mga kasama ko sa conference hall nung hospital.

pagdating ko dun nakabantay ung isang sundalo, buti na lang mabait.

ayun, ke malas naman nung written exam ko. di kasi ako nagrebyu, pero in fairness madali lang naman cya, un lang nga, mali-mali ung mga hula ko hehehe. bad case of judgement.

tapos ung katabi ko pa, 41/50 daw cya. ung paper ko di ko nakita kasi tiyempuhan lang ung bigay e. natiyempuhan na napakita sa kanya. chika naman nung isang intern na dun na taga ust ang highest daw e 45/50, lowest daw e 28... nakakahiya, ang feeling ko talaga e ako ung 28... huhuhuhu...

buti na lang astig ung interview ko, un lang nga taglish talaga ako e. hehehe...

ang sakit na nga ng ulo ko, pumasok pa kami ng class for 4-7 kasi may practical sa blood banking. nakakalito!!!! waahhh... hirap nung moving test. saka di mo makita ung kung ano ang nag agglutinate at kung ano ang hindi... nakakaasar...

haaay, ayan nagiging "whiner" na naman ako hehehhe... :p